Mea[t] Hook

Some things just need to be posted, no matter how awkward they might be.

I'm sitting here in front of my computer trying to decide if this should be made straight to the point or if I should at least try to prolong it a bit. This has been a topic that has caused me sleepless nights for quite some time and I have decided that it's something that should be done, and something I want to do. One final effort in letting the interwebs know what's going on in my head since I've long sworn off the idea of blogging.

I'm just not too sure on how to go about it since I have lost the ability to communicate my emotions well with people. Hell, who even said this should even be a skill? That's one human point less again, huh.

So, this is an open apology to everyone I have crossed paths with. To all of the broken hearts, to the relationships and friendships that were shaken or shattered due to arrogance, poor judgement calls or me blacking out due to the insane amounts of alcohol (which rarely happens now btw ktnxbai) To the people whose trust I have broken, to everyone I have influenced. Opening the door for you to lead you inside and locking you from outside once you heed to my invitations. I don't care anymore if everyone has a choice to do certain things, I never should have opened the avenues to explore.

To the ones who considered me to be the love of their life and took this gift for granted, I am truly sorry. To everyone I have considered to be the love of my life and let vengeance and my twisted sense of equality or judgement take over me and the decisions that I make, this I am more sorry for. How mature of me, you might think. There are just some things or how I see them that are fucked up. I never meant to do these things intentionally, but yeah it takes more effort than I thought. Pardon me for my weakness. To the ones I have cheated on and I cheated with, there will be never enough excuses in the world to cover for this. I'm not even sure how this happened, this was never part of the way I saw myself.

To my friends who I've introduced to certain vices, I never thought things would go that far. You would even think that since all of us were doing it, perhaps it could bring us closer but eventually that's what created a rift between us. It went as far as affecting my friendships outside my group so to all of those to had to deal with my dumb as a rock stoned state, sorry as well. I know you had your laughs but eventually it got out of hand huh?

And even to my family. I for one always consider that family should be solid and unshakable yet in the past I have failed to deliver. There were things that should have never happened, and I will make sure that everything will be better from my end.

Maybe you're thinking, everyone makes mistakes so there's no need to be too bothered about these events but that's different. These are the mistakes that I never wanted to happen to me.

Looking back at the past couple of years, I haven't been myself a lot. But now I have said my part and I mean this with my full sincerity. Maybe now I can move forward once more.

Machine Time: Sat Mar 3 02:49:38 2007 CoS

1 dryad
3 wraith
3 hd
2 dj
2 eff
3 lich
1-2 UR
___________
65 turns~

Too cool.

Megatron 48 Allegiance, 52 Power, 52 Aggression, 51 Intelligence

The Decepticons' most legendary leader, you are Megatron! You know what you want and you will take it by force. Negotations and other such foolishness are tools for the weak. Conquest of everything in your path is your birthright, and you intend to take full advantage of it! Weapons: Fusion cannon Transformation: Walther P-38

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on Allegiance You scored higher than 99% on Power You scored higher than 99% on Aggression You scored higher than 99% on Intelligence

Link: The Generation 1 Transformers Test written by Hooper_X on OkCupid, home of the The Dating Persona Test

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH PUNYETA KA 19MILLION NETPOWER NA NAG-POPSPIRAL PA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WAG PAGSAMASAMAHIN MASYADO ANG LICHES MR SAKA HD POTA

This might be my last post for a while as I've decided to disappear (not completely as I will still train or buy books when it's feeling too lonely) for a few weeks, months, hopefully not close to a year (definitely not even close to 6 months). I'm just here to say that I'm sorry if you ever messaged me on my phone and I didn't reply; I gave up my phone a few days back. So I'll just see you guys after this little experiment of mine and hopefully everything turns out fine.

www.pandora.com

Best internet radio station, you type in an artist or a song and it looks for similar artists and plays them randomly. I'm in love.

Hmmm. Covenience or safety?

Firefox or Opera? What do you guys think?

SPAM. And x-posted.

We sit here in Ventrillo and play a little DotA

uhh, yeah. Swedish video about DotA. Talo talaga, punyeta.

Superman in India!

Yeah, lawl. Download the whole thing.

edit: pota LSS. pakshet.